stories to begin with.

Lagu Kita

2011-08-28T01:54:00.003+08:00

Setiap ujian akan ditentukan oleh Nya.
Berkata Tidak adalah sama seperti mengalah sebelum ke medan peperangan.
Bersabarlah, Dekati diri kepada Nya dan hala tujuan mu akan ditemui.
Dan setiap ujian Nya adalah peluang untuk kamu mendekati diri kepadaNya.

Bertemu cinta kita akhirnya
Setelah tangis tanpa suara
Bertemu cinta bagai cahaya
Menyuluh hati menjadi kasih sejati
Kita bagai ombak di lautan
Terhempas pedih badai dugaan

sesal.

2011-08-25T11:16:00.000+08:00

kepuraan?

Majulah! The Singapore Spirit!

2011-08-11T22:23:00.003+08:00

Picture: Ndp Motivators 2011 - 45th Birthday.

I miss the fun that I've been through last year. Although it's like a long run, long weekends had been sacrifices, long energy drained and long hours of training, everything seems worth during the actual day itself. The satisfactions were so good! And today, Singapore has been a year older. So Happy Birthday eh Singapore. Stay good don't rise the fares too high ok. Nuff said.

BIT sekali, masuk. BIT sekali, keluar. BIT BIT! KAD RABBIT.

Okay, this works the same like an ezlink card,but it's only can be used at KL thou. Yea, exams gonna be here soon but i have the holiday mood already. How now? Iyaaaaak. Not sooooooo gooooood to have this feeling. Time for some revision k bye.

anjakkan paradigma.

2011-08-07T21:30:00.005+08:00

"Ubah cara yang lama menjadi yang baik"

2 tahun ber-blogging, 2 tahun bercerita dan 2 tahun sejarah terungkap. And it's so sudden, i felt like reading all my archives back. Everything, one by one. Starts from 2008 till 2010, and it takes me like 2hours to finish it up. There's so much happiness, so much sadness, so much friendship and that shows i can overcome it till now. Nevertheless, there's always some part where i just can't believe it happened. If you ask me whether do I wanna change things and go back to the past? I will say, "NO" Why? I don't wanna live with my past, but my future. In fact, things have change drastically, till then i ask myself, oh? i used to be happy last time with my love one. but now, not anymore w same people. people change, situation change. some are happily married w kids some are missing in action and some are idontknowhowtosay. well, why was i dwelling on the past now? lagi suka-suka saje kan. bersitulah jadinya anjakkan paradigma pada diri sendiri. Banyak pulak sogeh saye malam-malam ni eh.

Alang-alang dah bercerita pasal perubahan, why not i watch this show ehh. It reminds me of "Ada apa Dengan Cinta" heh, same actor and actress in collaboration again. also, drama cina sempurna is good too. okay enough of this. i shall wrapped up my stories now. toodles.

bersamamu ramadhan.

2011-08-06T22:01:00.006+08:00

Perempuan Pembawa Berkah.

Dan perjalanan seorang Sayyidah Adat yang amat payah, diteruskan jua demi keluarga. Dikuburkan cintanya demi memperjuangkan maruah keluarga. Begitulah kisah najwa

this show is making me more injected with television each time after buka plus i'm inspired to wear tudung now. takes time though. well, time flies so fast, dah nak seminggu dah pun kita berpuasa and Alhamdullilah, i did quite well. heh!

tatkala langit menghitam dan

manusia terlena diselubungi mimpi yang indah,

tatkala itu jua aku terpersona oleh keindahan kata-katamu

yang tersusun indah.

Dan jika kau terbukti menjadi milikku,

buktikanlah.

ehh-peee-emm 2011

2011-07-20T22:44:00.000+08:00

cheeky, obsessive, gila, and what so ever eh! you can called me that because i just spend the money to APM just to watch him singing him live and i'll be more or less satisfied also, once in a life time je.(birthday present from bruder, so why not right?) killing two birds with a stone. chey! and of course the picture below, it's not from APM 2011.below ah, baru the pictures but there's more just that i'm too lazy to upload it heh! okaybeest ehhh. i do have much fun heh!

bokeeeeeehs!

and when my fav boy was singing, trust me i'm screaming like a mad girl heh. excited sangat ah eh jangan marah. enough of this, heading to bed! chiaaaaoxz.

say hello.

2011-06-02T22:03:00.002+08:00

infocomm sys project. iad mini project. maths test and pmp lab text next week. thinking skills project. those are like my assignments/projects in hand right now and all gotta be ready right after i'm back from term break. *uhoh. ok lah. elmo is giving me a good hand, very good hand indeed. oh! globalization tomorow! warrrrrgh. k enough of school. below picture seems to be some handsome guy. HA!

tadaaaaa ~ you are on candid camera! heh. *taken just now.

well, its gonna be a week for bf at Australia. how i wish i could get a chance to be with him there, oh macam paham. i dropped by to his place just now and it seems so difference when he's not around. no noise pollution, no sleepy head, no fat-eater and of course no one to accompany me back home. so please come back quickly k? plus. i appreciate you for buying me those cute little stuffs. teeheee ~ oh btw. i love my msn background picture. berry nice.

si mister intelligence.

2011-06-01T16:55:00.004+08:00

EH EH EH. I MISS BLOGGING GITU. i have a lot of things to share and yet, i'm too lazy and heh, saye change the skins gitu. and and Alhamdullilah, i made it into poly. *ehem! dah 2bulan baru bilang ehhhhk. well, i'm proud of myself actually. teeheee ~ which means, i need to work more harder ah eh! and i have an amazing mr intelligence too!

si boyferend.
i adore this fattest boy no matter how many food he stuffs inside(which i think he makes me fat too?)then, no matter how angry he can get, no matter how many times we fought, no matter how many times we go out, how many times he make his sulking face, no matter how many times he call, no matter how many times he's too lazy to cut his hair, no matter how many question he wanna ask me, no matter how many times he stares at me and no matter what, i still adore this man. whoops? jiwangs ke? MAYBE EH. because this fat guy is at aussie for 3weeks and now, left w/ 17 days. counting counting ~ and the answer will always be i want you as a gift from australia, wrap it nicely ok. teehee.
and oh, i love you.

be good.

2011-01-01T22:06:00.005+08:00

new beginning and the start of everything again with new things circulating around me.

too semangat, i can even set a new resolution for myself,

be closer to Allah.
you have yet to know what i will reveal soon. (tunggu & lihat!)

2010 has been quite nice to me or maybe no? hahahha! but the best part is, i make so many new friends!(*ehem!*)

plus. i'm happy with my results! k cool.

courses & more courses to look into.

agitate?

2010-12-16T19:59:00.002+08:00

I've been staring at this webpage for like few hours and yet, I don't know what I should type it out here or maybe I just can't manage to put everything in words? Sheesh.

Oh yeah. Yesterday was rather a disastrous, I don't know what is all in your mind and you've just make me block you from everything, YES, I mean EVERYTHING. Oh c'mon this is not the first time you did this, but twice. Tyvm! You are rather disappointed, okay. You are rather shocked, okay. But you can't judge me till you said i didn't appreciate you as a friend. I treat you more than that. I love our friendship and that's why out of sympathy, I started the conversation. You told me not to play those 'guilty' kind of game cause' it won't work out. why? cause i guess your disappointment in me are like super high! Am I right? I've told me many-many times, that was my past and it stays as past but you what? dwell on it. everyone has their own past. i have mine, you have yours too and that stays as past. future is future. that's two different things. I'm sorry for this I guess this is the end cause' I'm tired. Really I am.

Rather than me being sad, I should be excited cause someone is coming back tmr! YAY.

what's up?

2010-12-14T22:55:00.006+08:00

Ezyyyyy A-wesome!

" sometimes when other people are in a mess, there's always one person over a million that willing to help although she/he has to sacrifice her own reputation".

a first timer to night safari.

oh wells. that was like my very first time to night safari. never once i've been there only yea, to the zoo of course. but that was like what, tons of years back then. HA! it's kinda an impromptu plan from you. there's so much of interesting show that had been line up for us you know you know. a night to explore the wild animal!

a dark tram ride with so many living animals around and even just beside me. Waaa!(jakun-jakun sayee).
a thumbuakar show which was very similar to those that i've watched at sarawak.(miss those times!) but i wonder, why they have to risk their life by doing that? hmmmm. nevermind.
an animal show. interesting for me but you said not really interesting as before. but yeah, it's my first time though. hahahah!
oh yessss! dinner with you. nyom nyom nyom ~

and you are off to camp tmr! S-A-D.

Date.

2010-12-11T22:54:00.003+08:00

yesterday, a date to a concert play; Cinderel-LAH

Truthfully, I enjoyed the play ultra much! Ngeeee ~ Fwee ticket lagi.

Below is the synopsis. Hee.

Starring: Emma Yong (Cindy), Sebastian Tan (Prince Char Mee), Chua Enlai (Precious), Darius Tan (Treasure), Neo Swee Lin (Evil Step-Mother), Lim Kay Siu (King Lee), Karen Lim (Queen Lee), Najip Ali (Fairy God Makcik) & Gurmit Singh (Mama & Papa Lemon)

Poor Cindy lives in a crowded HDB flat with her Evil Mahjong-Obsessed Step-Mother and two Ugly Step-Sisters. All she dreams about is going to The Grand Fish Ball where Prince Char Mee will choose a bride. Fairy God Makcik appears, and Cindy is transformed from “no taste” to “fashion ace” and off to The Ball she goes! But will the Prince be smitten? And will her dreams come true?
With an imaginative local spin on the world's favourite fairy-tale, Cinderel-LAH! W!LD RICE’s very first musical pantomime is BACK, revamped and upsized especially for the EspLAHnade!!

My heart will pump faster when I look into your eyes deeply.

waaaaa.

2010-12-07T21:05:00.003+08:00

big sigh. big relief.

everything was over just now. ALL down! Alhamdullilah. with all the last-minute revision, with all the late-night fast revision, with all the write up notes, with all the good luck wishes and with you around me, i realllllllly hope i can make it! Please please please.

i've been enjoying life. i don't know what's wrong with me. i've been smiling away all night before i went to sleep thinking about how i pass my days with all my happy people. niceeee!

OH! and i've yet to think on something serious. something something that i never thought of it. never thought that it will happen. hmmmmmm. *rolling-eyes!*

i guess i don't want any tagboard for now.
mentel kan sayeee. sayeee tau! :D

slowly.

2010-12-06T00:56:00.003+08:00

& i have yet to know what i felt inside.

mumbo jumbo oct & nov.

2010-11-10T21:53:00.005+08:00

it's been sometime i clear my dust and update this bloggie. so here i am ngee ~ since i'm very very fwee now & yes, some projects are clear left w revision + exams + cpg project(don't like it) and more la eh!

spookie nights with the bestest.

since it was a wellow-ween day, we had a night to sentosa spookie combo with shah's belated birthday sup-lise. well, well well. i did some screaming plus shouting plus laughing and yes, it was really awesome. thanks to lock & group too for the last part yea.

makciks & pakciks vietnam went jaybee!

makan-makan & tido-tido at seoul garden last saturday. well, it was planned a few weeks back and awww, ayu can't make it. trust me, the whole custom was full of people nak balik kampung la, nak pegi holiday la, nak gi jalan-jalan la, nak pegi shopping la & macam-macam la yer. but okay la, better than last time eh! well, we should plan more outings like this to catch up with each other. heh!

i have my girls that's more than enough for me! :D

oh really?

2010-09-24T17:40:00.004+08:00

currently, away from singapore.

i'm at vietnam.

enjoying myself? neh. i'm out for cip work. :P

a night spender.

2010-09-05T21:37:00.003+08:00

Personal Taste.

i spent my yesterday night watching this without sleeping till sahur. down 14eps, 2 more eps to go! heh. a very addictive show. don't wanna agree on me? watch it! currently channel u is showing it, but i'm kanchiong cant wait hahah! :P

special apology. i'm sorry irwan for not meeting ok.

maybe someday/somehow,

you'll bring me to your dreams edd.

wish-list!

2010-09-02T22:12:00.001+08:00

any nice people out there to buy me new shoes? wait, i think i in need of sneakers! nyeh nyeh.

and maybe a hair cut? *fickle!*

gawd?

2010-08-30T22:27:00.002+08:00

kanchiong much? memang pun.

panic much? lagi banyak kot.

so this is how i felt when my cousins just called informing me that they've reached sg. reached sg?! without informing earlier on. aiseh! kalang-to-the-kabut. fortunately, i'm still at home. unfortunately, everyone has to wait for me for like an-hour? or more? i'm sorreh. this is just unexpected moments thou.

told you, i spent my whole day with them. chatt-ed, entertain-ed and walk-ed. ultra tired yknow. but i had fun though. macam tour guide yknow. come here often okay, then can bring y'all to sentosa! yayyyyyxz.

it's been quite some time.

i miss you so much.

iftar bersama teman-teman.

2010-08-29T22:20:00.001+08:00

so it was iftar with the ndp peeps. bowl at e-hub.

and i have to leave early cause' i have to meet the secondary sch peoplexz at geylang.

sorreh peoplexz.

i swear the people at geylang are very rabak. tolak sana, tolak sini. aisehhh(!) rabaks.

define.

2010-08-25T21:23:00.002+08:00

not anyone else. just you.

ERGHHXZ.

2010-08-23T00:06:00.002+08:00

this is really ultra-pissing-me-off!

what are you trying to do now? please, for once let it be me. only me. not including you or anyone else. what will you get in return? NOTHING. really nothing. this is what i get uh? ok. you wanna say i always do that? ok. and get this in my mind, once i dont like it, i won't get back tryna to like that. your attitude are just being too much, ultra too much. for goodness sake, please change. fortunately, i can still be patience cause' i'm fasting.(Alhamdullilah)

and today's episode for cinta fitri sangat tak seronok. aisehhh!

old-old, lama-lama.

2010-08-21T20:00:00.003+08:00

i've been wanting to go here actually since forever and bf is being so-nice cause' he brought me here yknow yknow. being so kanchiong over here & there, i tried everything that i saw. aper nak buat, first time punya pasal. break fast outside and yes! my stomach feels like bursting w nasi briyani stuffed inside :S heh.

that day, that night.

2010-08-18T22:18:00.002+08:00

NDP Appreciation Night 2010.

Late evening vocals rehearsal. Escape rehearsal due to YOG CR3. Advices by Mr John Bai. Vocals Bubbles. My donut boy. Green-teas & Ice Lemon Teas.

All the hardwork paid off after that night. Seeing everyone smiling and enjoying, it feels so much better and i had fun, really fun! the food was great, the people was yays! thanks fatin for walking all the way to haji lane to bugis just to look for my dress heh! thanks boyfriend for carrying my stuffs.

can you sense it?

2010-08-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

what more can i say?

i don't like it but can i say? i just don't like it.

stop this? you think i can, no.

be it. i have to be patience.

gimme more.

2010-08-13T22:20:00.008+08:00

rabak day. costume yang aper saje. joget-joget.

credits: ms/mdm gho (photographer)

after months and weeks, went up and down to ite simei every saturday (burnt my saturday okay!) finally it has come to the end. after months and weeks, having to see some toopid faces and now it has come to the end. after months and weeks, having KFC/pizza hut for lunch/dinner, now no more leh. above are some of the photos at chua chu kang, yes! i'm at CCK. truthfully, the atmosphere there were extremely high! thank you boyfriend for taking care of me now and then.

part ni gua rindu sangat! my pontehhhhxz.

it's been like so-really-extremely-super-duper-long since I meet my both fat-sexy-girly-mentel-kecohxz girlsssss eh! karaoke amaciammmmz? mau per?

orang olympic, aku yang melebih eh!

I'm so excited! i'm so excited. why? yog coming in few days time? wait! its tmr. tmr is the official ceremony! sadly, i've withdraw lehhhh cause' efff-whyy-pee need to be clean up in few months time you know you know and yet, i'm still excited! went down to ite simei & yishun for the journey to youth Olympic and both places were mega great uh BUT NO BOYFRIEND FOR BOTH DAYS! gatal ekkkkk. :P

lagi suka abisss ama sinetron ini. suka banget dehhh!

cinta kita - shireen sungkar & teuku wisnu. - addict!

lewat semesta - randy pangalila - ter-addict balik! :P

right now, i have 2 more days to prepare for appreciation night. YES! i'm one of the kanchiong spider ever you see. aper tak nyaaaa, i haven't my dress ready. gahhhhh! adding on it, i'm having an itchy throat + raining nose = sakit deeeer! speedy recovery bella. hehh.

stare.

2010-07-22T20:53:00.002+08:00

"Sedangkan Nabi kita sendiri nggak bisa mengIslamkan pamannya sendiri," - from indon drama.

this sentence caught my attention and i'm so interested in knowing more of it. chet chet. i realised most humans pay more respect who those that have a higher ranking, but how about the flip side of it? Adding on to it, about circle of friends we have. some people just can't stop bitching about other people when their click of friends doesn't click with them anymore. plus, we can't make everyone happy with our own decision right? hahah, just a self theory though.

well, school was kind off okay. nothing much and yeah, welcome back flash. chet chet. i guess i need to get a box of inner-shine as soon as possible cause' i tend to be sleepy when it comes to thoery. sheesh! can't concentrate yknow yknow. worst thing, i get lazy too fast hahah! hi boyfriend, i need to have some jog, i'm getting fat to fatter to fatter haha. OH! before i forget about it, a new addition of my family had arrived, 2 boys! one of them is my nephew, and the other one is my grandchild? hahah yes. i'm like a nenek right now, nenek muda you know!

had briefing and some kind of self intro regard to Vietnam trip on the upcoming september hols. so yeah, i guess i need to get some early preparation for myself heh. yes! i'm excited for it.

teaching tmr, please don't make me heart pain students.
gonna catch my sinar laterxz!

a long run.

2010-07-16T18:44:00.001+08:00

school has started like few weeks back = more events + assignments.
more volunteer work.
i have tons of pictures to upload.
YUNA.
18th birthday surprise.
NDP Motivator Training
camping.
MYT3
family <3
SAIFUL AMRI.

say it now.

2010-06-06T22:25:00.004+08:00

there's nothing else now. yes, maybe you have enough of me right now. all the chances that you gave me, and all! next morning, you said you want me again, regretting last night decision. i have no choice, but have to leave this behind.

mat-kotai

2010-06-01T02:15:00.009+08:00

okay, it's been a while since i met aidi so had the chance to meet him yesterday night for dinner. nothing much changes, only he brought along his cousin and friend. good people, great time spent with them. thanks so much for the picture below, nyahahhaha.

amaciammmmmm cute banget tak saya? :O

okay, i have 3 more days left to study, nyeehhehe.

miss you.

team-5

2010-05-29T21:17:00.008+08:00

*fuhhhhhhh-hoooo!*

apparently, i've been not-been-a-good-updater just after a piled up of assignments given to me. and yes, am done with it. Alhamdullilah, good relief! but but but, there's still a finale exam next thursday on networking. not-really sucks, just average but i'm starting my revision oredy lehhh. see, good girl right? menyampah pulak budak ni. school was alright, everything fine i guess.

and here's a group photo on ndp motivators training just now. my eye-candy is in same group you know you know. *keningturunnaik!* personally, i prefer staying than changing group. leceh gileeer ah ~ of course my saturday's gone with this fun people around. so just now, the training was perfectly fine but fattah had been so irrits ~ thanks ah. measurement for clothing was taken too just now. am so excited to wear it. seluar macam ali baba hahah and very the shiny-manik-manik. plus, there was an audition too just now for the appreciation night.

as usual, bugis has been so-the-full-of-people every weekend. tu maha standard punya eh, tak boleh dinafikan chet chet. after training, instead of seeing candy boys(abeh dorang gi zoo, tak ajak), went to bugis with the usuals.

,you're fine, you're sweet but i'm still a bit naive with my heart.

sing with me.

2010-05-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

" Lihat Cara Dia Memandangku " - Ari Lasso.

concentration.

2010-04-30T21:25:00.003+08:00

" it sucks knowing that you're angry again."

in just a split seconds/few messages, you're angry again.

just me asking you a question, you're angry again.

screw this okay. screw this.

principal's dialogue was okay. really okay. in fact, i enjoyed it.

despite on those long lectures from him, his speeches are kind off funny.

especially, crubs & uhhhhhh. hahah!

after that, off to lepak-ing with the rest at esplanade. am waiting for some videos to be uploaded.

okay, just wait heh.

wooooooo, i'm happy. selected to be ndp motivators, yehhhaaaa!

preeeeetyboy tmr.

i miss this!

pretty-BOY

2010-04-27T22:49:00.001+08:00

i like him, like a lot! goooood. * thumbs-up!*

double-the-joy, double-the-fun.

2010-04-27T18:38:00.000+08:00

saturdaeeee; ray-ban day with ariah.

shopped till drop with MYT3 on friday. wooooo! i like what i've bought. and i'm-kind-off-broke right now. geeeee! can't blame anyone though. met up with ariah on saturdaeee. slacked with her at Mac Cafe and off home. please, i don't like cinnamon meltz. sucks!

mondaeeee; twenty-six. (dahhhhhh tuaaaa!)

twenty-six reasons,

sorreh to nyesa sohor, we're late. (yang nie penting!)
blue is the colour code. - i like my polka dots shirt, woooo!
cheap card is good you know.
hello-kitty wrapping paper, cute kan? hahah.
vivo sky park.
adidas shoes and wallet.
shafita, azmanyesa, arisha & bella (i'm alone ah)
azman pakai slipper, macam saper eh? hmm.
bella - curl, ariah - straight.
bedok corner for late dinner.
to bugis to exchange size.
penatt dohhhh wrap present.
half way to go .. takde idea ah.
ohhhh! " i'm looking for my wooootch ".
ita pakai heels.
shah muka burok kalau merajuk.
nyesa marah, muka tak cantik.
azman owns a sexay legs. wooots!
shah's handphone OFF.
bloated after eating hor fun.
ariah ate mee goreng + mee hoon tak nak sayur.
azmi tak ikot. - semua tanya asal.
azman kasi reason merepek.
ader orang gila ludah-ludah, eeew.
ok, second last. sunday was the surprise for azman.
FINALLLLY, HAPPY 26th BIRD DAY okay.

gimme a moment of joy,

2010-04-22T20:54:00.008+08:00

" memang benar aku sudah jatuh cinta, memang benar aku jadi resah.
bila cinta dari mu hadir bagai lena dari mimpi, bagai perasa.
memang benar aku sudah jatuh cinta, memang benar kata hati ku padamu.
tapi aku tak kuasa mengatakan pada kamu, rasa cintaku. "
- liyana jasmay; aku jatuh cinta.

it's getting out of hand sometimes, but i'm tryna to hold it whatever happens.

instead of asking you to change, it's you whom wanting me to change. weird much?

sucks hearing you talking 'BIG', sucks asking people to do stuffs, its just sucks.

but, someone is there to call me sunshine.

proud of myself. my hair like mad woman right? suck balls.

idont'tlikecinnamonmeltz!

happy now.

2010-04-21T13:39:00.004+08:00

currently,

I miss my MYT3.

Really am. Its been awhile we've not been meeting eh babe.

Let's meet up on Friday alright!

YEAPPPPPPPPPPPP. Iwan again

HAPPY TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY IWANNNNNNNNNNN!

PLUS PLUS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANG BURN. (i-don't-have-any-pictures-for-it) lmao.

okay. bought him a body shop things as a present.

looks like he's happy with it. YEAY!

All animals are equal. But some animals are more equal than others

gonna watch this show later at drama centre with the rest.

thank you very much for the free tix.

looks good.

2010-04-20T13:17:00.002+08:00

Good life with new phone!

NDP Audition.

well-known, why not?

2010-04-19T16:25:00.003+08:00

Yes, please. Mind Your Own Business!

Nothing else better to do than telling people my past? Mampos! Baik ah. Really man, I really don't like it on you(i don't wanna tell names here!) telling people my past whereas it already past. What will you get? A Certificate of Participation? Or maybe A Prize of The Best KPO Person Ever. Huh! If you wanna talk, better be in front of me. Why talk to others? You know the story better than me right, so just tell me what you know. I don't give a damn anymore on that matter because it was just my past, read this. MY PAST. Why KPO? Uh, tryna to be concern wannabe? Hell no, I don't need any of that. It pisses me off but hey, i don't need to go to you and create more matters. I would rather keep my mouth shut. Thank you very much.

I really don't like your attitude dude.

Please change.

exquisite.

2010-04-17T20:32:00.012+08:00

geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

nak matair macam dia boleh?(tak abes-abes eh aku!) - iwan, iwan!

Log-in to facebook and joined this group called;
"Not knowing what to text back, but not wanting the conversation to end"

nice. i've always feel this way, everytime okay, not sometimes. hmmmmmm.

and to irfan, if you're reading this;

i don't know whether you seeing that as a joke or true fact but that's truly hurtful, i cried.

because i was just frustrated/disappointed on you of not telling me earlier.

okay fine. i'm just someone-not-important-right? so yeah. i gotta accept that. but i've texted you on not calling you a "jerk" and there's no reply. thank you very much.

what's up with ndp audition? not-expecting it was like 30 of us joined that? hahahahaha.

nice try. in or not, just wait for further updates ah. wargh. i'm truly sad right now. my favourite band singer, just passed away just now due to road accident. Allah just loves him so much. Deepest Condolence to Family Achik Spin.

Blazer's First Outing; ERPPPPPPPPPPs.

Bella's Favourite Shot!

Saturday with MYT3; loves!

bella loves the ben & jerry at dempsey hill.

lemme kick your day with their ass!

2010-04-15T23:44:00.009+08:00

hello bloggies.
CCA ROADSHOW was tremendously fun to the max.
snap here snap there. meet good people.
i tried rock-climbing, just too excited to try it aft seeing singaling tried it.
not been doing it for like past 2years, i'm stuck-ed as expected. hahaaha.
thanks qaiyum for the support, so much of primary sch friend.
TIRED but not my end of day. pack up and met my blazeeeeers!

gonna get the cd from ms joanna soon!

blazers split into two groups; movie and sheesa. (sucks much?)
i had mee siam for dinner and talked alot with khalil. (he's iskandar)
nops. fizrin was not there. (sucks again!) he said sorreeeeeh alr.
watched kick-ass movie and it was tremendously great.
bear falled, tergolek-golek uh. he he he! :P
i viewed thiam man's msg. (kaypo right, i know!)
singaling should come yesterday lor.
still thinks that my complexion is very bad.
kick-ass is M-18 yknow!
heh. ended my night with texting khalil. LOL?

i'm up for saturday's NDP audition yeah!

gonna update my ben-and-jerry. LAMA SEHHH tu.

oblivious - unmindful, unconscious, unaware.

2010-04-14T22:00:00.004+08:00

i don't like the complexion of my skin after blaze camp 1.

just too dark. i want my fair skin back. :/

plus i gotten this bad scar on my hand. oh pleaseeeee. pain sometimes.

also adding on, bad cough. *uh-huk-uh-huk!*

sch was rather short and simple. nothing much for now.

tmr gonna be cca roadshow. ice & singaling gonna be emcee. am Sexcited! :D

thanks for asking for the camera too, girl. appreciate that!

next, i wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnna meet fizrin tmr pleaseee?

heh. going to speech day on friday doesn't seem right? idk. i felt that way from just now.

maybe am gonna see you again just like how i did bumped to you that day? hm.

that is a matter for me.

i need to get a date settle for this irfan. busy-man! hahahaha.

lastly, i addicted to jay sean - i'm gone song. thanks emilllllllllll. mwa!

geeeee! a full complete album of afgan syah reza has been downloaded by me! i'm happy.

its just took me a lot of time to say i miss you.

and now, i'm not missing you. weird enough? that's the fact.

your hurtful speeches are still lingering in my mind. sorrreeeeeh!

3days 2nights.

2010-04-13T20:39:00.000+08:00

Blaze Camp 1.

weekdays.

2010-04-12T20:01:00.000+08:00

leadership summit 2010.

extra-extra busy and too many updates to be make. so here are the pictures.

new knowledge gained, new friends made & even new best friend FOUND.

excited.

2010-04-04T22:43:00.001+08:00

Blaze Camp tmr. Yeay! (:

mwa.

picture of you.

2010-03-30T21:43:00.002+08:00

tuesday; cause its you/loves.

so what now? damnz. i miss you.

see you tmr fan fan fan.

ariah's bobariah ninteen.

2010-03-27T14:40:00.012+08:00

wednesdaeeee; ariah's pontehhh/gerekz.

13 things that happened on that day;

boyfee can make it with his office wear, finally eh. looks matured, me likes it belly much.
azman & nyesa ambek leave samer-samer. cute eh korangs!
Waking up early in the morning and helped nyesa out to wrap all the presents.
Planned changed, from swensen to marina barrage then finally, to marina south piers again.
weather was super-duper hotness. (benci sayee!)
i love my boyfee. walaupun merajuk just because of forgetting something.
shah handsome, kan ariah? eventually, i gotta be agree with you.
sabrina manyak colok.
i don't like cheesecake, don't know why.
tali coli ariah longgar, oooooooooops! heh.
i had rojak keling at ktm + pau bbq chicken.
azman ckp, makan rojak akan membuatkan diri saya gemokx. OMG!
energy drenched eventually.

fridaeee; ccm teaching/boleh-tahan-teroooook.

sometimes, you can't expect evertyhing to be on what you expect. why? because my students pissed me off. i just can't be bother but somehow, i'm there not waste my time but to teach. i guess this is why some educators get so depressed with students attitude. zomg.

saturdaeee; af8/iwan - meltz.

i nak matair ngan dia boleh?

weeeeeekend fever.

2010-03-26T22:19:00.013+08:00

fridaeee; MYT3/hearts.

I love hanging out with my girls. Popeye/Cotton-On/Prologue/Mac-Cafe and found Emmmma. she really cute, isn't she? oh wells, her mom is like so prettay. biasa jugak, beauty therapist. pergh. and i found a new wallet called chumpy. yumz! say hello to chumpy!

saturdaeee; swimming/funnnn-abes.

(i need to get the pictures from ariah bobariah)

sundaee; ikea & bowling/amaciamz?

raining seasons. bowling is the place for some-hang-out and this is the place when no one can't think of any better places to go. after finding frames for bobariah and penat walking the whole entire IKEA, bowling is the place. okay, as usual azman won the game. we did went to mount faber and the surroundings was superb, tremendously superb i tell you. i'm sorry dear, i need time to ask myself what happened to us and thanks for those advices abang azman.

its been a while that we have not sit and talk to each other.

best-est.

2010-03-22T16:34:00.003+08:00

my weekends are well spent with my girls and love ones.

despite, the raining seasons and couldn't meet boyfee, at least i had fun with my girls.

okay, i'll update more in the next post with pictures.

ok bye.

Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
- George Bernard Shaw

over.

2010-03-18T20:16:00.003+08:00

i think i in need of this baby.

maybe after those not-so-good comments from you. yea, i did denied you i'm ok but actually i'm not. mm, probably just go for this alright.

moral of the story, " don't be too kanchiong to go to school in the morning ".

too stress over flash assignment i guess till i'm like super-duper-freaking-early to reach school. and realized after a few secs, class starts at 10am. *laughs!* besides that, my stomach is being super grumpy due to my mens. so, balik rumah pun cantiks right? slept likka baby after that. huahuahua.

geregetan.

2010-03-17T13:46:00.005+08:00

short day.

started my day with macd big breakfast, not fats but belly FATS. but never mind, just for today alright. next up, a short presentation for narnias on dating online. na'ah, i don't believe in dating-online whom someone i know for like 10mins? probably, different people has different thought yeah. can say, im super nervous a first but phew, thanks lock for not-making-me-feeling-okay. love narnias!

hot-temperamental-person? ah. okay.

how can you deal with it? i have no idea.

just a sentence for you; i still love you.

merantau warrior babe.

its take me like super long to download ths thing to my lappy and ended up, i can only listen to the voices. noob-ster! no choice, just watched it u-tube instead. super-duper-nice i tell you. been wanting to watch this at the cinema last year but couldn't get the chance. and the guy above got killed at last, urgh! he went to jakarta to like searching for people whom wanting to learn silat from him and got killed cause' of a girl. gentleman enough girls? ha ha ha. ok, i cried at some scene of the story. expect ah eh. go watch it.

a day.

2010-03-15T14:36:00.005+08:00

i'm done watching this show just now.

and there's a quote which really attracted me. it says, " cinta kepada manusia akan mati akhirnya. cinta kepada harta akan memusnakan diri. namun, cinta kepada ALLAH akan kekal selamanya ". ringkas and senang untuk difahami. it do reflect on me.

somehow, somewhere, i can depend on you. somehow, somewhere, i am comfortable being with you. maybe you're being too nice, too nice till i can't lose you as my cousin. i wish i could tell you and be the 'straight-forward-kind' of girl but i'm not. in the end, i'll just keep my mouth shut rather than telling you. end note: i'm sorry if i have to break your heart.

next, i don't understand why you have to talk behind everyone's back? it just crap and immature. just say sorry and end it in a good situation. i don't see the reason why you have to drag all the mothers to this situations and ended up some people get scolded just because of you whom tryna to twist all the stories here and there. c'mon, you're way older than me, i doubt you can't think maturely right? end note: see yourself first before you wanna badmouth others.

lastly, met boyfee. missed out the weekend outing and gotta a chance to meet him just now although it was just uhm, 2hours plus,plus. haha. better than nothing right? and i missed school day just now. too lazy since there's only retest for some people. ok, get some focus to start on e-greeting card. yeay!

twistz.

2010-03-10T21:33:00.006+08:00

Twister in the packet of twisties.

Second round of twister with the kecoh people at marina south piers on sundaee. they rented it at minds cafe including the taboo. again, i had truckloads of fun. dinner at simpang yucks! don't like the nasi goreng pattaya, tak sedap lor.

first round of twister with narnias. so much fun and laughter. yea, including my back pain, leg pain and energy drenced. but still, i had fun! more of this alright? he he.

sunshine;

i'm feeling comfortable in your arms.

closer to you.

2010-03-07T01:29:00.002+08:00

the rhythm sticks in my mind.

bu-ze.

2010-03-06T00:21:00.001+08:00

short post.
i'll update more.
goodnight.
miss boyfee <3
miss myt3 <3

another-day.

2010-02-25T23:08:00.006+08:00

210210

Meet-ups with Zai & Hafiz.

After so much of postponed/paitao/tergendala, finally get to meet them. Was supposed to fly kite but the weather doesn't seem good on that day so free ticket for movie from fizzzz. yeay! but instead of watching wolf-man/valentine day(not again!), we watched HK movie. belly funny, no regrets! i laughed like nobody business, tak percaya tanya hafiz. HAHAHA! plus for zai, all the belly best on going into camp eh. padahal dah message, takpe. kasi kau fofular kat blog aku.

school was rather too short to story about and i spent more time at home. and i just download-ed only FIRST part of merantau warrior because hourly timing ended. shush! noob ah. tmr gonna be another day. tmr will be going to ftp, boyfee allowed! but still, i can expect i'll be coincidentally meet you in school. hope not ah, pleaseeeeee. oh-no! my schedule is even more tighter nowadays. assignments & more assignments! all the best ah eh. mafia war-ing has been great! he he. sempat seh ~ i need more sleep.

me misses you ~

me misses you more ~ you owe me a date baby.

interesting.

2010-02-24T21:21:00.010+08:00

Ha! i just realized that i haven't update what's going on when bella is free on CNY holidays and of course, i spent so much time with myt3 and boyfee. but before that, yesterday was another phase test for me, NMS. partner-ed with singaling, and it takes time though to get the connection here and there. best part, she was kanchiong on the starting of the test whereas for myself, i was kanchiong at the end of it. overall, we did it! mwahha. ended early, so i was rather too rajin eh agaknya bcause i did changed my bedsheet and even change my blogskin. liking it, belly a lot!

okay, here's the picture.

140210.

till now, i still can't believe that she had tied her knot to the one she loves. maybe cause' its like so-cepat-gitu. so yeaps, its on V'day. a kecohrable situation is a must yeah. not forgetting, celebrating kak nani(hot-sista) besday.

liking the picture a lot. belly nice + pretty + sexay.

candid!

when the cousin's meet up, gossips are the best things to talk about. love love.

150210.

yeah, next day jek dah mentel nak jumpa tunang nya. just like she said, start of something new, and the plan was go kite-flying at sengkang. some where there ah eh. ka-lo-pa-eh! he he. then, was expecting on having dinner at ecp but super-ramai-orang-lor. planned changed, the craving of having KFC finally ended, he he. had my ultimate box and ate at tanjong rhu. macam mini-picnic with fast-food like that.

and i go, "sayang, ambik gambar kite yokkk ~ "

160110.

a photo shoot with myt3 & helmi. will upload the pictures soon! but i've uploaded some on fesbuk. check it there alright. so the guys went for kite-flying again, same spot.
did meet boyfee at that there but was so-kanchiong-to-feel-how-nyesa-drove-car. first time seh rasa! ha ha. mau tak syiok-syiok gitu. my bad because' i did promised him that i'll be back right after i followed her but i was too tired till i can't help to get home as soon as possible. adding on, he was damn frustrated on one kid cause' that kid had just snapped the string and the kite just flew off! dengan aku-aku sekali dia mengamuk. but we ended up saying sorry to each other lor.

pictures on last saturday. lock's birdie. he he!

as usual, there's more at fesbuk.

and so, i love the shoes that we bought for him.

idon'tfeelgoodwhenshe'saround.

im happy cause' i have flash at home! yeay.

next update.

meeting with zai & hafiz.

dating with nyesa.

tweet-tweet.

2010-02-20T14:47:00.005+08:00

let's clear up the dust in my blog and starts posting more, more and many more post! he he.
after so much of temptation in watching it, finally gotten the chance to watch it with nyesa menteeeel! nyahahhaa. its been a while since we watched movie together, i mean together, just both of us. yes, of course! i'm loving it. worth my cash too! romance + lies + funny + sacrifices = tremendously good, belly good! * thumbs up! * next up, i wanna watch (alamak! forgotten the movie name ah, but sweet tau!) should ask boyfee along. then, what's with my Hindustan movie, "my name is khan". alahhhhhai! :/

lucky, i'm in love with my best friend.

wait a minute, that guy belly hot. i like belly a lot. :P side-track. silly, i-don't-know-his-name.

yeap, i like the part that they really fall in love with each other and they're best friend. the way he sacrifices himself to buy the ticket to stop her from going L.A, the way he call her "sunshine" and of course, the way that they kissed ah even though it was awkward at first. mwahahha! belly a lot. i like.

i'll be meeting my people later. yeay!

oh now what? HAPPY NINTEEN BIRTHDAY TO LOCK! billy lock. thai boy. chey, ninteen already huh. see you later later.

i have more things to upload.

i have more things to write.

gotta edit pictures ah.

boyfee slacking at home. mwahahhhhaha!

says.

2010-02-13T22:34:00.004+08:00

Puaka Nyiang Rapik.

best slot horror drama by Ahmad Idham. i can catch this show every thursday at sensasi actually but too slow, so yesterday i just finished watching the WHOLE freaking show and there's so much of suspense. i even have my drinks and food were ready in front of the laptop plus i did slot it projector(nak feeling-feeling wayang gitu lor) but still, i watched it alone, best part no ones at home. overall, i enjoyed. mwahahhaa.

140210.

valentine day + my ever best, mentel anak sdara is going to engage tmr = kecohz.

can't wait to meet kecoh people tmr. yehhhhhhaaa ~ boyfee gonna be there too. mwahhaa.

oh mangs, i've been sleeping late afternoon like nobody business seh. and the best part, i can't sleep well on the night pulak. gotta change this routine ah. adding on with the late food taking at night, FATS. tmr go jog? okay must bella. please wake up. backz chatting with ariah bobariah. he he.

loves

2010-02-11T21:14:00.003+08:00

riuh pagi era.

this two dj do really makes my day every single morning when i tune it to era while siap-ing to go to school. and they will start talking as early as 630am, wah! pagi eh. superb!

better than anyone else.

misses;

Another Long Saturday.

2010-02-07T19:06:00.006+08:00

Congratulation again on Xcapade on winning the HR competition yesterday.

And to Noor Sabariah,

despite on your lupa script in action, still you won right? baik ahhh. and spent almost HALF a day at SMU. boyfee fetched early in the morning(tak pernah jumpa pagi-pagi) and off to SMU. OH! before that, the first look i saw him, i thought it was azman(sorry ah nyesa!)sekali tengok balik adik azman lahhhh! it does make me laugh non-stop. was told that Xcapade would be the last group to perform, aper lagi shah dah Game-Over and he was only awake during high-tea buffet and tea break. luckily, brought myself the nintendo game and boyfee was so-into-the-presentation. yerlah, budak ambek course HR kan kan kan? so much of that, i was damn nervous when the results was going to announce. perfecto! just as wanted, they won. CLAPS!*

monopoly deal was the best game card to kill the time and the best solution to make boyfee understands how to play that game cause' till now, he still blur! =.=" and gotta say this, i slept peacefully due to the lethargic day. and you gotta sent me a few more pictures.

over-reacted. i know it that you know that i'm feeling this way right now. but what can i do, i can't deny that. yea, i told you everything, everything on what i should say and i'm sorry, really sorry. i have my own reason on that which was i'm not ready to be that way, really not. its like, why must you do that if you're sincere and unhappy? hm. i know, one day i will be that way but not now. i'm ultra kecik-hati but i can't take it too hard and gotta understand. i hope i can, i'll try my best.

get well soon baby, please?

akarberbunga.

simitaichi?

2010-02-05T00:02:00.004+08:00

random photo, cute right? i lioke.

hmmmm. i think i'm growing fatter and fatter each day. despite on me getting stress in school, i'll tend to eat more after 8pm. (omgoodness!) had a set of macdonald for myself, hungry lady! and now, i'm eating ice-cream, yums! i wanna go jogging this saturday. eh? no i can't. need to attend ariah's competition in the morning.

school was terrible. my thummy was giving me a problem, damn it! while doing some job sheet, it just don't wanna detect my file. what now? so much stuffs in it and don't tell me i need to re-format me. siao liao!(singaling's FAV words)and yes, the best part was help from mr iceman. thanks dude! school ended early too and i did took my peaceful nap as usual.

boyfee ka-le-pangan. tedung super early to max ah.

and he just had his haircut + new specs = can't wait to see him.(loves!)

time to get prepare for tmr's battle field with students! nyahahha. toodles ~

Like.

2010-02-03T21:35:00.005+08:00

starts of something new.
and he likes kembali pulang song's by kangen band.

i just feel so right talking to nadia. we can talk hours and hours on msn, bitching about guys/girls and etc. thanks for listening to everything i said too. even if its CRAP. and now, i miss my MYT3 alotttt!

feels like tonight

2010-02-01T22:04:00.003+08:00

to be true and keep your promises, to be loyal and just stick to one.(else, your ex gonna haunt on you)

a movie planned with narnias and classmates. trust me, it does made me heart-attack, ears can be out of shaped due to the girls' screaming and enjoyed closing eyes cause' some parts are just too scary to watch. applause* another nice show apart from phobia II. ahhh, start of new month is equivalent to new topic for flash player. ha ha! battle field again, i like. thumbs up!

spending time talking to you for hours is more than enough.

2 more days, i know. (imissdonny)

misses.

2010-01-30T23:02:00.004+08:00

myt-three.

i didn't get the chance to get to see them just now. was effin' exhausted after a long day at beach fiesta. i miss playing monopoly deal with them and of course, the laughing a lot session too.

talking about beach fiesta, the weather today was tremendously killing me i tell you. super warm and i just need tons of water every where, here and there. the games were just very fun esp circuit game and i gotta chance to meet donny donny donny(gatal eh!) and lionel lewis was there. oh mangs, couldn't get the chance to snap photo with him. shrugs! oh, i love watching lock when he's dancing. despite on the technical difficulties, he was just very energetic and enjoyed all the dance moves. kind-off proud to be his friend, yay! so much of familiar faces i saw. thanks to perri for collecting my lunch and goodie bag. so kind horr! after so much of excitement + enjoyment, and the best part to kill the tiredness is to take a nap! ha ha. but still, i'm feeling sleepy right now :/

he slept early due to the heavy headache.

take care. ahhhhhhh! i'm turning in now. toodles doodles ~

living.

2010-01-29T21:51:00.003+08:00

and what if your lecturer found out, early in the morning she said, " oh class. i lost every work of your phase test yesterday. VIRUS attacks my laptop. you have no choice but gotta do it again." power ah! so, yeah, after receiving the message, ice was the FIRST one to react like, " oh. damn! mengamok ah. " also was tremendously semangatz to text everyone saying, there are some bad news and if you guys wanna come school quick. trust me, everyone were super kanchiong and really wanna know what is it including me, kalang-kabut joy! HA. but in the end, im happy. gotta submit a new better one. kekek! like finally, i did my best on the flash player. but still, more to go ~ veli good ah.

i just can't be bothered with my surroundings when i'm exhausted like just now. yeah, i did went on my teaching normally but kind-off the syiok feeling is not there anymore cause' the teacher in my class just couldnt stop talking with the students while i'm teaching. wahhh sehh. i just cudn't say anything, only instructor mah ~ nevermind. i still can do better next lesson.

ok. beach fiesta tmr. gotta wake up damn early and now, im really need my beauty sleep now. he he.

diam ah.

2010-01-28T22:53:00.003+08:00

ok people. how's my phase test just now? just one word; sucks. yes, am really sucks at that. maybe the insufficient of preparation on the flash player, makes me feel that way. oh yea, i'm stucked too at the middle of the test. jangan cakap stress, pissed off lagi banyak aku raser. and because of that, i'm tremendously kanchiong on finishing the test. oh well, just shuddup ~

taking chances,

santau.

after much consideration, planned a last minute movie outing with brother and his girlfee. don't why but i prefer this show compared to other malay horror show. oh well, i did distress myself, he he! nothing more to comment BUT i have to say, you gotta watch it.

kangenbanget.

so called.

2010-01-27T20:54:00.002+08:00

lemme remind myself.

i'm gonna have a phase test tmr morning.

in need of help right now. :/ battle field with flash player tmr. hiyakdush*

old friend. long conversation.

kind-off plain but it worth a start i guess. maybe cause' we've not been talking to each other for 2years. wow! lama giler joy. well, we did exchanged stories and and even continue chatting @ msn. gotta know him when i'm sec one and he's in sec three, same CCA. HA! not really cute but i just can't stopped looking at him when he's there. biaseeer lah kater samer cca, so can see him each time there's a cca. ngee ~ whatever it is, that's so called, " citer budak-budak kecik " eh. and here i am talking to that guy again.

beach fiesta this saturday.

and i wanna meet myt3 also you.

yunayunayuna.

2010-01-26T19:44:00.000+08:00

Aku manusia lemah selalu terjatuh

Berbeda aku dari mu

Kau berdiri teguh

Aku serba tiada aku kekurangan

Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifatmu tulusnya hatimu

Jujurnya niatmu

Tingginya kesabaranmu

Lepaskanlah diriku

Kerna aku tak mampu tuk menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna

Darimuu

Darimuuu...oahh...

Bukan aku tak pernah mengerti dirimu

Kusanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan aku

Hilangkan rasa itu akhirkan semua

Dan bila kau sedar aku hilang dari kewujudan.. Oooo

Sempurnanya sifatmu tulusnya hatimu

Jujurnya niatmu

Tingginya kesabaranmu

Lepaskanlah diriku

Kerna aku tak mampu tuk menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna

Darimuu

Darimuuu...oahh...

scream it.

2010-01-26T17:39:00.006+08:00

(afgan syah reza) - all time fav.
i'll tune in his songs to my ears and it ease everything. yes, i've been wanting to see him LIVE, not on television or what, live as in LIVE. ha! nothing to say, he just too cute. >.< ngee ~ baby, i really wanna watch boys like girls asia tour concert please? too bad. all tickets had been sold out. i'm so envy on those whom going alright. diamm ah!

flash player = disastrous. really in need of help on that.

networking = i'm coping it damn well. * claps! * (sometimes, i can go crazy ok.)

but still, i've been going home early for the past 2 days and school starts @ 11am tmr.(just like today eh) errr. phase test is on-the-way to meet me, this thursday. all the best, of course. because of ending school early, i'm done watching Cinta Sempurna @ Mio Tv Demand Channel. love it, a good show just to make me realized on " Iman, Takwa & Cinta ". adding up on that, the theme song is sang by yuna(nyesa's ALL time FAV). manyak syiok lah!

yesterday, met up with MyT3 @ airport just to get their perfumes. superb cute i tell you. went terminal 1 first to fill up our stomach with popeye. next, skytrain-ed to terminal 3 to search for the perfume and in the end they fell in love with the lotion(abeh, bukannya nak beli sekali tau)so ended up @ macd terminal 2 to play our all-time-favourite game: monopoly deal + babi attack. sekali, they changed their mind on wanting to buy the lotion. baikkkkkkk ah! afterall, i enjoyed myself last night.(pictures must ask ariah's later.)

the kecoh people. - found it @ suffi's fesbuk.

down.

2010-01-24T23:34:00.003+08:00

can i just exchange any one's nose right now? tissue is like one of my bestf alr.

i'm down with flu and my cough is like tryna to add on with my it. canteeeek ah! i just need some rest i guess.

KuIngin Kau Tahu

2010-01-22T19:16:00.003+08:00

somethings are just too difficult to let it out,

(saw this at syafiq's bloggie)

i have to absent myself from school cause' my cough is just getting worst and now, im having flu. trust me, i've finished a BOX of tissue to clear up the traffic jam in my nose. LOL! morning downpour was lovely just now. so lovely till i woke up damn late. O.o i cant even go for my teaching, really im not feeling well. damn it!

(bella's fav) - Photograher: Encik Haslan.

currently addicted with, mati rasa by dewi sandra. amarah - kd & ct. kembali pulang - kangen band. baik-baik sayang - wali. d'masiv - rindu setengah mati. lucky - jason mraz. jodoh di tangan tuhan - raffi ahmad & laudya chintya bella. kuingin kau tau - adrian martadinata.

oh yeah beh-bey, i've updated my playlist. ngee ~

im meeting you tmr.

Lucky.

2010-01-21T21:26:00.004+08:00

hello bloggie. i've not been updating so much cause' firstly, i think i have too much to update yet i'm having a tight schedule so i don't have time to switch ON my lappy and update it. ngee ~ i think i'm sick cause' im having a bad cough! and my throat keeps saying, " tekak sakit lah bella ". ha ha. enjoy being with you, yes. i do.

school are just being really nice on me. although it is kind off normal but waking up early is kind off a problem. feeling restless and shagged, even the rest are just like me. the modules for this semester are just too tough but thanks to those whom sitting beside me, i can manage it so well. he he!

Photo-shoot with Myt3 and 3 photographers! Here it is.

this is just the sneak peek on it! gotta wait if you wanna see more of this! ha ha. they gonna compile everything in three CDs = Easy. next one will be sporty kind of version right? cant wait! nyesa nak tunang pun aku tak sabar. yay-nes(!) after that, proceed to ariah's crib and trust me, my eyes just turned into vampire's eyes. super duper red! then, met up w the kecoh people and ended up @ suffi's crib. lately, been slacking around w this kecoh people ah and i'm having fun. besides that, i'm the youngest of all.(gua kembang babe!)

ok. enough of being close with someone's popular, someone whom having pride, someone who always wanna win in JUST A SIMPLE CONVO & someone whom cant turn down the ego down. lemme get this right, i dont wanna have any Confrontation cause' i dont wanna dragged in more people in this matter and i dont wanna this thing to be in a high profile mode. you wanna say imma destroyer? just be it. you wanna say im childish? do say it. you wanna say im lying? oh! tell me IF i do. and i realized, i'm not really a tough girl whom can handle this on my own. yes, im thankful for the close one too. he he. let this be like this ah ~

ahh.

i need to update my phone's & indon's song.
i need to send in email to yh regarding the project.
i need to have a cough syrup.
i need to prepare some things for tmr, else i'll be kanchiong! he he.
i need to call you.

kembali pulang.

ice cubes.

2010-01-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

that's what i feel right now.

need to prepare some things for tmr. forgotten ah! shuts. class starts at 9am tmr too, yipeee*
had a blasting night with myT3 just now. i wanna play that guitar hero AGAIN.

nice one.

another daeee.

2010-01-06T19:13:00.003+08:00

Antique Anouk.

he's my Sarawak-ian friend. he makes me addicted to imogen heap's good night and go song and FPM's songs. he introduces me to mee kolok and ontokio tiger shoes(if i'm not wrong, hee!). he taught me sarawak's language. he cheered me up. he advices me. he said, " sometimes being in love = fragile and fool person ". beacuse of him, i feel like gng sarawak again for the rain forest musical show. he's just so different from others ah. will see him online at ym. and see shawal online too!

what's with today show? SOCCER.
singapore vs iran.

and i think he's the cutest!* winks! winks! *

brother was super semangatx to watch this match. yeah, he does ajak me but nah, borrrrrrrring thou. i guess, sg cant make it ah cause' the score now is 3 -1. yeah, iran is defeating singapore in this match. expected ah eh. maybe cause' lionel lewis is not playing in the match, reserved player! ha ha.

oke. school was not-so-boring just now.
NMS can be quite difficult for me too.
feel like going shopping ah.

hurray! ~ meeting MYT-three tml. mwa!

second daeee.

2010-01-05T18:10:00.010+08:00

A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words. - Donna Roberts.

So people, how's your second daeee of sch? mine was great because of this bunch of people. thanks to sc and class, we're closer each daee. conflict-s? hah. so much of that but we ended up with a good solution. ehem* lock's besday is coming, turning nineteen dude. next will be community service @ Laos. im hoping we get thru' the selection alright cause' we've been craving to go overseas together right? so lock, better come tmr to fill up the form and i need to get my books too. next two term's subjects will be more to video thingy and networking stuffs. so bella, prepare for the worst! heh.

02jan10: Photoshoot with MYT-three. mwa!

(more photos in fesbuk)

finally, first ever photo-shoot with cousins succeed! we've been waiting for it, and there you go. kekke. they reallieee made my day ah! and because of too excited, nyesa lost her phone ): sedih teramat sangat! (terima kasih kelalaian.) cabbed down to nyesa's place, got some stuffs and cabbed down also to ariah's place. makeup and stuffs,(thanks kak mia!) off to parkway parade, cabbed too! hah. bought ballooooooooons and finally, cabbed to botanic garden. we had picnic too ok, and ariah's pasta sedap giler(sampai member b'peloooh!) ha ha. end note, i enjoyed my day with you both. love you! mwa. looking forward for the upcoming one. kekeke!

still, am not over you. - just have the instinct you still reading on my bloggie. so nah, this is for you alright.

im getting nat ho for myself, only myself. you girls can have the rest.* winks winks! * 2nd last eps this thurs. must watch! ha.

chatted with you last night,

last note.

2010-01-04T17:32:00.009+08:00

left-over updates in december holidays.
Sarawak Leadership Trip: 11dec - 15dec.

(more photos in fesbuk)

its been really a memorable trip indeed. new bonding, great experience and good teamwork except for the bedbugs on the first night at santubong. just that, felt a bit disappointed in not getting to go sarawak culture village and also, not getting to meet anderson cause' i left my hotlink sim card @ home.(that's the why!) it felt super comfy sleeping and resting at merdeka palace hotel. oh roomates! thanks for being so caring when im sick. appreciate that! end note, i enjoyed myself. plus, thanks yazid, hidayah and wei siang for sending me off at the departure. he he!

apiz and nad's meetup.
like finally, i got to meet you both up esp nadia. aft the break up, i didnt get the chance to meet you all. well yeah, everyone was v busy and stuffs. so, shopping at bugis and apiz did complaint to me that nad has been buying bags and bags but she doesnt wanna wear the bag which he bought for her. LOL. v cute. then, dinner at arab st. ok, i'm reallieeeeee feeling damn repletion during that time. HA HA HA. kebulor! end note, i still miss nadia. he he!

20dec09. everything ended.

ice's seventeen besday: 28dec09

sadly, lock cant join in the fun!

meet up with the rest earlier to get some presents for iceman. slurp bag and huge balloon are more than enough for him huh. as expected, he gave himself an ice's watch.(too long to crave it lah brader!) ha ha. started with singaling's game and the vegetable drink was "nice". omg! ha ha ha. tpsc came w a surprise cake for him, if im not wrong, it was uhm .. mango cake. end note, wish you well in everything ok. mwa!

next updates: photoshoot pictures with T3.

turning off.

2009-12-30T14:59:00.001+08:00

and YOU.
i'm not over YOU.

just been so not-in-the-mood to go online.
i'll update everything next year.

one.

2009-12-09T19:56:00.003+08:00

Currently hearing, Two Is Better than One.

Teater Natrah.
After watching the musical show, Beauty and the Beast, am interested for more theatre shows esp the above. directed by Erma Fatima(saper tak kenal seh!), this show gonna be a blasting one i guess. sad to say, i cant catch it cause' its at malaysia. based on maria heartogh's story. what a history huh!

New Baby Born!
Muka So Boyan right? Exactly. Keke.

Imissyoubehbey!

patience/kesabaran.

2009-12-08T18:59:00.003+08:00

i've always wanna move fast just likka a flash of lights and get a good effect of it but some how, i can't. i'll be moving likka tortoise in a race but in the end, i get a good results too right? so to get this clear, i wanna take things slowly, never wanna rush things anymore. never again,

Sarawak's + iTalent's Briefing.
i'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited for sarawak trip this friday but something just ruin it. feel like backing out for it but i dont want because of a thing, i back off. just go and have fun ah cause' im super high in going to the wind cave and shopping! Keke. I need to do my packing again. So malas! What's with iTalent then? Kind off competition for ITE students to show their hidden talents over this event, there will be autograph session, road shows and of course, POPULARITY. one cool thing, people can vote for you just likka reality singing competition on television. So yeah, upon marking my attendance for it, 'saw Gerald's name, but he's absent. Only me and ice from central, kind off weird but nevermind. Met bestfriend butttttttttt we're not-that-close, nothing to talk about. Err, I dont know why. Yeah, double weird. Shush!

Cause' I dont understand what you want sometimes.
You've been beating around the bushes.

Crazier - Taylor Swift.

2009-12-07T14:15:00.001+08:00

You lift my feet off the ground. Spin me around. You make me crazier,
crazier. Feels like I'm falling and I I'm lost in your eyes You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier.

Boyfee is off to reservist for 2 freaking weeks :/ What can I say? Sabar aje lah yer. I did met him yesterday for dinner. Nothing much to say but the bottom line is, I enjoyed having him around me. Now, he's away to the jungle for some mosquito's bitting. Heh. For myself, i'm gonna get myself busy with packing stuffs to sarawak and maybe KL? ha! even cousin's from KL is coming on wed but its unconfirm yet but higher chance, he'll be coming. how now?

Critically Ashamed.
Some how, some where, I felt cheated to someone whom I just know like few weeks? Yeah. People have been giving me quite a good respond for him except bestf and his mom. Even my bestf's mom doesnt really like me befriend with that person. If I have to openly share everything here, am gonna be ashamed of myself. ashamed to deny everything, ashamed to state everything. it spins me around. now, i gotta think twice on everything. maybe the priceless present that you gonna get from me during your birthday is that am not gonna interfere you anymore.

Remember About The KL Guy whom I used to Love?
He called last night. Everything will not gonna be the same.
He said, " His feelings towards me gonna remain the same. " What should I do? What can I say? This is when I repeated to myself, I dont wanna make any decision which will affect other people's feeling.

Boyfee love this. Gonna get something like this for his Besday! He's 2weeks away, and i miss him alr.

Ok. Off to Sarawak's briefing + iTalent's briefing.

a living.

2009-12-03T21:58:00.008+08:00

I know. I know I've not been doing a proper updates and maybe the best word is, tak update langsung! Ah. Just super lazy and too tired, but not for FESBUK. yea, i've been blog hopping a few days back and few of the online blog shop. nothing much, of course i'm attracted with few of the tops and dresses. he he he! ok, pay not in yet. :/ know what? i've been trying out this tumblr thingy, BUT its kind off not my type ah, like very difficult in a way i cant be too simple like blogger. worth trying thou! exams over ah! ;D yesssssaaaa(!) enjoyzzzzz yok.

Narnias.

there's a lot pictures on us actually which i'm lazy to uplaod it. just a few of it will do alright? heh.
and you, lock, better send me the remaining oneeees. he he. watched a musical theater on Beauty & the Beast @ NLB. Free right? So why not. proudly to say, it was super hilarious + full of romance = I enjoyed the musical show though there's some irritatingness on the theater. nah, jsut disappointed the other 2 couldnt join us for sarawak next week. :/

jiwa. naluri.

i can't be this way. gotta move on and i dont wanna think about it anymore. no more, not killing me but it makes me think a few times. make me gila? no la. not to that extend only the old memories kept flashing on my mind after seeing what i've seen. jealousy? ah. maybe. kept denying it but i cant cos' it keeps haunting me. i've tried not to make it seen, but maybe i can't. just leave it to the time.

its just too early to make this happened, too early to get this thing right but too late regret everything or rewind it.

i hate making decision which gonna effect people's feeling. its not that, i'm pushing the blame or fault towards myself its just that if i can ignore it on the start, i will. i'm taking things slow.

imissboyfee.

seadanya,

2009-11-09T15:15:00.009+08:00

I feel secured when you hold me tightly in your arms. I feel comfort when you hugged me with love. My smiles occurs the surroundings once you tell me you miss me. My heart melts when you confess that you're sincere towards me and yea, i'm over the moon

i'm still in a "heart pain" mode for what had happened and yes, its my fault ah. shits! never want this to happen. *sighing. too late to regret. will cost me a bomb Again for repairs. lenses.

still figuring out, still wondering about it.

why is there still heartless people whom doesnt wanna appreciate people. make them love you, and leave them without a proper goodbye. worst! jahat sangat ke? felt pity for those who have to get through this situation. well, i myself had felt that, apparently its painful, too painful that you feel like killing urself and dont wanna face the facts and the people. on the second thoughts, you need to think about the future and tell yourself, that person is not worth to cry on. yeah, words are easy to confess but not action. hmmmm ~

terlewatkan,

2009-11-06T14:43:00.002+08:00

i love nature like a lot. keep browsing the net and found so much of nice nice places esp Bali, Indonesia. feel like going there and explore the place. heard some stories from cousins and they said, they really enjoyed their honeymoon. (jeles aku!) okay enough, collect money first then can go. reminder, exam is coming ah eh.

school was super fast just now and i skipped P.E again. too lazy to go. felt a bit shocked when i heard some stories from friends. its not easy to believe on people nowadays. just like what anouk's sentence, " Lie is the main actor in Love ". not only love actually, even friendship and work. hmmmm.

yes, we did rekindled our relationship, baby. love youuu.

congrats nyesa on passing your practical, so now must bring me go jalan-jalan(!)

ultra awesome

2009-11-03T23:05:00.004+08:00

Happy Twentieth Birthday for Nur Anisah Sohor.
okay ah tu. tak tua sangat kan kan? hee.
sayangggg kamu a lot a lot. muah.

gonna meet meet this 547 tmr. *yay!* ultra *yay!*

school was okay. more to theory than practical. 3 more weeks to exams, no more slacking girl :) as usual, i got a "bapak-bapak" advice from boyf. we're in a okay okay terms, not fully recover yet. presented my slides to class just now, feeling a bit nervous cos' never once i try presenting something to class alone, usually with chunks of classmates ah.

heard some stories from this particular friend. in my opinion, i think its kinda LAME. well, summaries it, Gang A doesnt really my friend to be part of Gang B, as in go out with Gang B and have fun ah. Gang A said to my friend that, they hate my friend to go with them and felt that my friend betrayed them which I think, no? i dont think my friend gonna betray you all ah. im not pointing fingers or something. its just that i think you(gang a) are too unmatured in dealing problems like this. cmon la, we're not the young young kids whom will quarrel over a small friendship problems. its just misunderstanding right? oh well. im just stating my opinion ah eh.

well, im starting to get my hands to write some notes and i need to clean up my study table. SUPER MESSY.

maybe i'm wrong.

2009-11-02T22:52:00.005+08:00

yes, i cried again. so what? i'm a cry baby. yes! i am. i admit it. i don't wish to talk about it at all but half of my initiative says, i need/have to. spared my time to call you after an ultra tiring day of school (9am - 830pm, what i can say) cause' i wanna know how's your day and yes, the correct phrase will be i miss you. started with a strange husky voice. i'll assume you just woke up for your "usual" sleep huh. nothing much to say, more to "senyap-senyap". nvm, at least i'm happy to hear your voice. well, my lucky day doesn't seem to love me a lot after you hanged up the call w/o saying "bye". added on with that bad news which was you can't make it for tmr because you will be having an outing with students. hmmm, understandable. that's when i cried. maybe you need time for this baby, after my "unexpected" ques for you yesterday. nevertheless, just so you know, " never once, i have that doubt feeling on you. " love you :D

pottery class again just now, a very last training which was painting. before that, they had an election for the SC president for college central and KENNY, from yishun campus has it! Congrats yaw. but hey, that guy is " SOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE ". like omgoodness, i really told every single one of the people there. *laughs!*
even if i'm saying he's cute, i'm going to say that you're always in my mind everytime.(awww!)

i really really wanna meet meet boyfriend.

that's what you get.

2009-10-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

School. Home. Bathe. Eat. Homework. Sleep. That's why I left out most of my updates on euphoriabella. just too busy.

school was awesome. (plus stress too. heh) singaling brought along monopoly card with her and played it for a few rounds. well, elle won for that few rounds ah! nice one for ice breaker. any way, there was a classmate trip last friday or maybe last-last friday. can't remember. went to dragon kiln to make pots, using CLAYS! then, on the monday itself, went to machperson ite to make pots again for the 2nd year SCs. and i'm loving it cause' we did have fun. :}

oh yes, HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY for heeeeedayaaaah. (finally, i got the correct date eh!)
was invited to go for her birthday chalet and i went alone cause' amira can't make it. felt a bit disappointed at first but in the end, the usual clans really make my day. wehoooooo. ~ thanks a lot to yazid for dropping me and javier at bedok. nearerrrrr for me. did catched up a lot of updates from javier and for the v first time, i just knew that he stays at upper aljunied. -.-

I miss you. Really do.

hot candies with the suprises.

2009-10-20T13:48:00.002+08:00

lemme list out the things that me happy;

gotta chance to eat A&W after so long.
had a long chat with bf while walking back.
i love Mum.
curly-wirly hair. (i love my long, wavy hair too ah!)
done reading my new book.
spent my weekends overseas. (i enjoyed myself)

i don't mind putting this on a low profile. but sometimes, i felt too far away from you to lean on me. nevertheless, i'm gonna try my best to be myself and kill away all the ill feelings that i've always have when i'm alone. neither i'm regretting nor feeling sad on it. holding on, baby.

brought this book called " Cuba Try Cinta Islam " @ Kinokuniya, KLCC. quite a good start on showing you how to deal with timing and appreciate the God. love it a lot!

familia ~

2009-10-09T14:17:00.010+08:00

Sunday (4thoct), Afternoon, Pasir Ris Park. (Tolong eh, panas gileeeee!)
Today Friday kan? So its been 6 days the pengantin baru are together! (Psst, Cepat-cepat dapat baby okay, so sayee dapat tambah collection untuk cucu sayeee. He he he!) Before that, Congratulation eh Abang Fadhly & Shikin. (Eh! Padahal aku makcik krg tau) Ha ha. on the day itself, they celebrated their 5th years anniversary. woa! so lamer kan.
any way, the place can be very windy and hot to the max at times. overall, quite a nice place to hold a wedding reception. pictures below, credits to Nyesa.

having a very BIG FAMILY is great.

partly, felt disappointed cause' bf can't attend the wedding but in the end, its just a small matter where i don't think that i need to make it a big matter right? well, he does his part by explaining to me why he can't make it and i guess, its understandable.

speechless. heartless; that's what i felt when you told me everything.

precisely, i thought and felt that i'm not important enough for you since you told me that you're caught in an accident. best thing, it was on the same day as the wedding and you told me the day aft that. yea, you made me cried and i ignored your phone calls. why? cause' i dont think its a need for me to answer it. but on the second thought, i wanna know how was he during the point of time. Alhamdullilah, he's fine, very fine indeed. *phew(!)* but not to his bike. " the bike is just a material and now, i have only you, my family and God .." awww, sweet kan! (member tersenyum tak abes2). couldnt make it to meet him on monday cause' its late and mum surely doesnt allow. so make it up on tuesday and nie lagik best, he overslept! (luckily i called him, if not .. *shaking head!*)

time past very fast when i'm with you.

i'm overwhelmed when you said,

"you're the better one, what for i leave you .."

it isnt easy for me to realise that i've fallen for you till,

you left and went on a vacation ..

almost here.

i've been craving on going to jakarta. and hurray, family has been planning to go there for a vacation during june holidays. can i meet my afgan there? he he.

plus, i wanna go langkawi.

currently listening, afgan: wajahmu mengalihkan duniaku.

oh yea, cooked sotong hitam for the first time. and brother compliment me with a big smile. first time ah eh. didn't expect much on the taste but boleh makan ada rasa, its not bad already.

letters.

2009-10-02T14:49:00.004+08:00

i don't wanna talk about it. no more ~

decided to change blog skin since i feel like changing it. not that i'm sick of it but it random actually. unlike my boyfriend, he can't get sick of things easily eg his fav food, chicken rice. when we're out for dinner or smtng, he'll order his chicken rice. susah nak tukar menu ah, i don't know why. in fact, that's a good hint ah actually. know why? maybe he won't get sick of me sampai bogeh! hahaha. boleh tahan teruk ah eh.

10th sista came to my house yesterday for rayeeee. brought her two children along, ayumi & fasha. very cute yet very naughty! children are very active nowadays, so understandable yea. she asked me along to 3rd sista's house for raya. had mee siam & nasi 'kawin-kawin', sedap ah seriously. i can grow fat if i keep on consuming those foods, aww ): anyway, i'm going for diet. healthy diet, of course. people say, " why diet? you look slim already what? " (rolling eyes) i can smile over it. i wanna diet cause' i feel that i need to, not that i want too. there's a different between need and want yea. 10th sista has been sharing me stories about her life and her children. well, i can't help her in any way but just to listen and keep it as a tips for me in the future.

menyampah; that's the only word i can describe now.

i don't understand why people love to boost themselves in front of others. i don't like it ah. pasal baju pun boleh jadi hal. macam paham ah eh!

in some situation, i need to understand you.
in some situation, i need to be there for you.
in some situation, i don't like to be disappointed.
in some situation, i really wanna be there in your arms.
vice versa,

feeli like having kfc, HEEEE.

2nd week of Syawal

2009-09-28T19:43:00.006+08:00

Last week was super hectic and I rarely go online, of course I didn't got the chance to update my blog. Seriously, the whole week I went out. Cousins' house la, sisters' house la, brothers' la, maklumlah kan ramai sangat adik bradik. I don't really have much pictures to upload, or maybe I'm too lazy ah. In fact, the uploader pun lambat giler ah eh. So forget it sudah ~

boyfriend startled me with his, " ahhhhh! ".

lemme tell you, part 2 is way better than part 1. like what khai said, " seram, serams & seramest! " Hah. 5 different short stories, of course. And for me, the seramest was the bag packers. I can scream like hell but i just kept quite and hugged bf very tightly~ the dead crops, omg can? heh. I love watching horror movie but in the end, i'll be the first one to cover my face. Penakut okay!

why now? why you have to pester me with all your calls and text messages? in the end, i'll get fed up cos' i have to delete everything again and again. I did complaint to boyfriend, and yknow what he said, " i think he needs a some help, maybe he's in depression or something ". i cant do anything, but just leave it. sometimes, i felt kesian but on the other hand, i felt what for should i kesiankan? i have my life, my own happy life while he has his own too. i'm feeling guilty when i have to story this to boyfriend cos' he has his feeling too! but i have to be honest to him right? So no matter how big or small the problem is, i have to tell him. i realized that he's been very matured in handling or maybe solving every bit of my problem. well, i love him and i cant deny it of course.

my weekends were a sweet escape thou. idk why mom talked to me in that manner. yeah, its painful when she was nagging and the paling tak best part, " UNGKIT ". from there, my small mistakes become like a very biggest mistake to her. i just don't understand her sometimes. in fact, i took in every sentence she split out from her mouth and please, don't talk back, just keep quite. seperti kata pepatah, "masuk telinga kiri, keluar telinga kanan," chey, macam paham, padahal time kena nag dah nak nangis! on the other hand, i brought boyfriend to bro's open house(elfyan's birthday) and i'm feeling happy cos' they accepted him like very well. abang even said, " jangan serik tengok adik-bradik kat sini eh, " hah. i know he's feeling super kanchiong and yes, super geli-gelisah! haha. can i complain? i miss taking picture with boyfriend ):

in the end,
i love you the most.

dengan secara kebetulan

2009-09-18T20:49:00.006+08:00

first of all alright, baik kaper dah 19th 19th 19th! turn aku lamer lagi ah eh. hur hur hur.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY NADIA. * love love hugs hugs! *

i think i wish you late? ok. but who cares ah eh. love you alot! sorry ah gambar muke tak perlu tapi perlu untuk aku post and that's when i'll laugh. cos' i know my kiss is just seducing that's why muker kau steam! HAHAHA. one thing, last long dengan apiz. heh.

i can now eat ice cream. i can now eat chocolates. i can now drink milk. RECOVERED BEH-BEY! ~ and im lovin' it. happy giler kaper girl. like dur, i've been so weak like an old woman not having enough energy to walk. appreciating so much on mum's banyak colok + membebel tapi concern abeeeees! hur hur hur. boyfriend's over concern, ok la kidding ah (nanti complain ah biler bacer). & lovely caring friends.

wednesday's theory test was freaking terrible. i'm expecting to score well on it essential but neeh, FAILED. -.- on good side was, i scored very well on dmt's test. but still ms joey said, " my marks dropped " okay ah aper-aper ah eh. boyfriend was sleeping the whole night after he reached home from work and didn't text me at all ): very sad. lethargic due to carry tons of sand just to fill up the decoration under my block. construction worker kapeer!

yesterday's highlight. like finally, finally finally, i've gotten my baju kebaya instead of kurung. ok. seriously, i don't like shopping last min because there's no wide variety for me to choose but on the other side, im loving it cos' can kureng harga. semalam ramai gileeeer okay, biasa nak rayeee! one funny incident, (while looking out for his b kurung)

Salegirl: try sarungkan ah.
Boyfriend: sarungkan? Hah? what's that?
Me: * giggling! * try to pakai ah.
Salegirl: * giggles *
Boyfriend: sarungkan is wear right?
Me: * nod-nod * pandai pun.
Salegirl: still * giggling *

i know he's not-very-good in malay ah. sometimes, the way he talks in malay really makes my day! very funny. very baku. heh. one more thing; sayang, thanks for yesterday. anyway, i was fcuking pissed off with idontwannamentionthename here! okay whatever alright. gonna prove to you that i can make ah. okay best!

Cinta memang tak bisa ditebak karna jalannya membuatku bingung selalu
- Acha Septriasa, Tentang Kita.

kantoi.

2009-09-15T20:03:00.013+08:00

hectic days for both saturday + sunday = sick day in the weekdays.
didn't attend briefing and etc but managed to fill some time for this ramadhan on wheel - ROW. all thanks to brader cos' he had the ' lobang ' for me. made new friends and of course, saw some familiar faces. went to ite simei alone alright. being posted under event volunteers was a bit dissapointing but after the discussion on having not enough man power for facis. well, i'm in. what a yay for me! take note of our destination which were from ite simei to amk to ite simei to giant tampines to amk then back to ite simei. did fell asleep while on the way back to ite simei.
pictures below.

shopping at giant was a bit disastrous ah! ramai gileeeee sampai pening dibuatnyaaa. luckily, yanti did helped out. if not, i can go crazy with the countings cause' every pax were given only $150 vouchers. tak cukup tambah sendiri ah gitu. finally, iftar at ite simei and had a small birthday celebration for syafiq's friends, shakina if i'm not wrong ah.

had a briyani on the dulang shared by 3 people and the food was berkecah ah especially this syafiq cannot eat properly. anyway, i just got to know him in this programme and people thought that we've known each other for so long or maybe same school/classmates. muka macam syed azmir kapeeeer! :p (perasan memanjang la brader eh!) and he told me that he's attached for 2years 6months. Lamer kapeeeer! next up, PPIS camp on december. boyfriend will be having reservist ):

on sunday itself, was busy preparing for thoery's exam. i was so frustrated with mom. she disagree on me going on bintan trip while at first, she was the one agree on it. nevermind, mengalah ah eh. she know the best for me! anyway, i'm sorry for not been attending some imp stuffs i know im wrong, really sorry. i really not been lying to you, seriously. you should know why i didnt attend. im sorry, love you alot!

my stomach says, " i gotten a penalty! yahoooooooo. but it was offside " penalty was food. offside because i throw out everything. so ended up, my stomach kicks OUT the food that i consume. been resting like an old woman on the bed and felt like a 10kg stuff is on my head. skipped test and school for two days. ): boyfriend was worried, i know. and oh, i havent get my baju rayeeeee yet ok.

the feeling just strike in naturally. and i know it's you. asmaraloka ~

currently tune in; mekar hari raya - siti nurhaliza
currently watching; cinta & anugerah - next up, cinta fitri confirm!
currently playing roller to the coaster game.
heh.

break the fast.

2009-09-10T00:56:00.008+08:00

yea, i know my 'aunt' hair will always be your favourite.

lemme tell you about my phase test. its kind off PATHETIC ah. I can finished it like 10 minutes. so fast right? yeah, i know. I'm P R O. Okay, no la. maybe the mixer was nicely set up by the previous classmate that sat for the test. the timing for my test was supposedly 1pm but thanks a lot to zee whom waking me up around 11 am yeah. although you kacau my sweet dreams, but its alright, i owe you a waking up call too! hee. currently, watching cinta fitri season 4 again.

alright. met the early bird boyfriend at bugis. he's reached earlier than me for the second time. yea, i know i'm late. i met joseph too! okay, i'm not supposed to be happy alright, sekali he spilled out the beans to fazil. and there you go, the gossips will be out at tabloid! no la, not that bad yea. something funny, he lost he's visor! Pathetic gileeeee. after so long 'talking to each other', he realized it. couldn't stop laughing after seeing his reactions. better get a new one okay darling! then, balik rumah bukan nak tdo tau. had a chat with ah ong after a long time. i know you miss him, so better not deny it yaw!

featuring the narnias.

okay. break fast with the narnias and lil sister, celestin. actually, that was singaling's sister ah! had dinner at empire state if i'm not wrong at iluma AGAIN. i'm sick of iluma can? the place was super A W E S O M E and syiok gile. red light. everything red. trust me, my stomach starts saying, " there's no empty slots for the remaining food, so no more. " heh. that means, i cant finish my food. it like half of the chicken okay. i told lock, when you bought the mussels, i remembered MR Bean and yea, they laughed! i don't know why, that both gentlemen of mine was so GENTLEMEN today. they bought us a movie tickets without telling me & ling. it was 3d show, (which boyfriend really wanna see it, keep saying wanna watch 3d show) g force. thanks alot yaw. hee! unfortunately, i cant stay longer with you guys. and oh, i had a very very happy & enjoyable day with the narnias.

your kisses are just too seductive.

anxiety.

2009-09-05T22:05:00.007+08:00

Ahhh! Lemme have more rest after yesterday's teaching with Metta's Students. That was unexpected thou, indeed it was a good experience. Just like what Mr Govin said, " feel fortunate of yourself after you left this place, ". feeling super exhausted after the teaching. maybe because of the attitude shown by my buddy? maybe i'm fasting? maybe i'm out ouf patience? i dont know. however, i need to comprehend that they are just different than normal kids.

i know i'm jealous and i'm aware of that.
prefer to remain silence cos' i don't wanna do much talking after the call and that lady?
maybe i need time to overcome all this.
currently, watching cinta fitri season 4.

discovered that i'm starting to feel good in studies cos' i've managed to remember how to put the data cables in which slots. thanks ice and mr yar :D because of that, i'm looking forward for my phase test on friday. yay for me!
going bintan for two weeks on the 28th sep with the narnias. i know, i'll miss you terribly.

Looking forward to watch yuna live in singapore. omg omg.

ringring, anouk's birthday is tmr tmr tmr.

refreshing.

2009-09-03T21:02:00.004+08:00

ahhhh. hello bloggy.

what should i say now, " im feeling good, alhamdullilah. "
indonesian sinetron is like, " syiokkkkk-ness! "
next week, class tests/phase test gonna starts, " i know i can do it! "
i wanna stuck in an elevator with afgan, " like durr! "

i've been receiving calls from ex bf on the wee hours. tons of messages, of cos. i dont wanna bother about it anymore ah. its like bothering my sleeps lagi ada ah! i know you felt sorry and stuffs. but i felt nothing towards you. no more feeling after what you've done ah. if you wanna called, you may. calls will be diverted to boyfriend if i didnt answer it. so yea, its up to you then. diverting calls are funny sometimes. like just now, billy called, i didn't ans and was diverted to boyfriend. he even said to billy that, " most probably i'm in school " HAHA. whereas i'm at home ah. totally forgotten that today is thursday.

anyway, saw aidi and friend yesterday while waiting for sufian. as usual ah, he's late. i don't know why ah. break fast at banquet JURONG! long journey for me yea, butt cramp! overall, it was euphoric spending time with him. some how, i saw familiar faces ah ah ah. honestly, felt sleepy when its on our way back home. ngantoooook gileeeee! yea, i realised that we didnt spend much time together. so yea, no more jurong darling.
laughing part, he said " i need to learn thai language if wanna go langkawi " aper kener mengena langkawi and thailand ah! LOL.

" cinta aku itu kamu "

genius?

2009-08-28T06:38:00.005+08:00

i've make a decision to go back to ftp this coming monday.

more or less can see you. >.<

whoopsiee. hurhurhur!

i'm unsure what i'm gonna do when i'll see him. Hah!

confirm awkward abes. -.-

yesterday was superb,

perhaps i felt betta after meeting you.

instead of layaning my craving for murtabak,

had ljs's golden deal.

and gosh, you're late again. noted ok!

funny incident,

while sitting he asked,

" then after doing project, your friends go home eh? " - him.

" yea, but xinling went to work at kumon, hougang. " - me.

" jauh per? hah. kumon tu soya bean eh? " - him.

HAHAHHAHA. i laughed till my stomach can burst.

" no la, its a learning center, macam paham ah " - me.

" oh yea, i'm going to say that BUT you've said it already. " - him.

instead of admitting his mistakes, he went around the bushes.

as usual, saying that he's a genius -.-

i just realised that i'm not feeling better aft receiving two messages in one shot!

double blown for me.

i don't know why, brader don't wanna admit.

and, i don't know why she piled up all the responsibilities on me.

i don't wanna get frustrated cos' i'm fasting.

nvm, i'll just do what she want me to do.

no point getting mad cos' the deadline will be today.

just finish it up, and it's done!

i'm feeling you in my heart.

I'm Feeling You.

2009-08-26T00:46:00.003+08:00

i dont want you to feel betrayed.

he's just my past & i dont wanna dwell it.

i'm feeling awkward reacting in this way.

hope that this thursday will be better day for us.

i just realised something,

i love wearing white when im meeting him.

maybe white love? haha.

i guess,

2 hours plus for you was not enuff for you to enjoy w the other teachers.

i'm sorry for making you rushed.

but i'm super bored while waiting. heh.

" aku ke-capek-an "

and thanks anouk for the super nice lovely song.

(: heh. send me more next time.

frustration

2009-08-20T00:11:00.002+08:00

school was abit frustrating today. despite the jokes and laughter, but still i can't forget the frustration made by some people. i'm hoping today gonna be better than yesterday, im wrong anyway. well, im human too. i can only planned everything but He will decide everything next. maybe i take it too hard or i can't take jokes or what, idk. at least, you could said it nicely, but you didnt. you talked back to me like as if i can't even take on look on your outcome of your group's project. fine then. dmt's calculation was a bit tricky thou. sometimes a simple question may lead to a tension between you and the other party. i just couldnt take it anymore and i just shut my mouth and walked away. wont want to ask you more. maybe im wrong cos' i didnt take it seriously when im in class but im tryna my best to absorb what i've learnt. i told soursoup about it, and i think its fine for me to share this with him. just hope tmr wont rain.

yesterday was it essential's test. yea, i did a last min revise. im expecting much better results than that but it's alright, i'll do better on the next test. at least, you congrats me & im touched.

soursoup.

2009-08-18T10:20:00.003+08:00

" so are you tryna to seduce me with your smile as always and make me hug you? "

i laughed really loud aft he texted me that. i dont even know that my smile is seducing. ok?

last sundaee, met with the ccm teachers and we agreed at marina square. ok, faizal im sorreh ok. make him wait for an hour right? sorreh yea. even zul and aliza were late too what. unfortunately, i can't thru intan. sad thing. coffee at starbucks with faizal and we catched up with each other. he's nice actually, and zul manyak colok ah! ok, sorreh can't spent time with you guys longer. looking forward for buka-ing yea. (:

met with soursoup. he's late again, as usual -.-

supposedly, we planned to watch at marina, but because of the seating yang memang tak best langsong, so we tikam-tikam go suntec. LUCKILY, there's a slot at 7 in the evening. the movie memang menyakitkan hati, like serial killer uh but there's a few chapters which were very funny. well, overall the show was fine! and there's this very cute girl whom he interested with. lol. and the girl in the picture above was actually 33years old ok. not a 9years old girly girl. the funniest part about myself, my stomach kept growling and growling. serve me right, macam phm kan, kater tak lapar! had a supper at kfc, and he ate again! BIG-EATER. told him about that guy, and yea he's too ego to admit that he's jealous. yay!

best part,

" he know tak that you're with ME? " - him.

" uhm, yea? " - me.

" then? " - him.

" then what? he still want me to trust him ah. " - me.

silence.

" what if i chose to be with him? " - me.

" speechless " - him.

i can feel vividly that he's jealous, maybe sad? hahha! no la, like of cos, i wont get back to the guy whom busted me already. hmm. why must i get back to him when im happy with you? pandai kan? also, i need to remind him to where he park his bike. okkk, im looking forward for thurs.